Jen Butler

I’m ready to own it. I. Read. Smut. I fought it for many years. Then my sponsor and therapist and cousin all recommended I read it. And finally I was like WHATEVER FINE. And… 😏 #acotar #acotarmemes #acotarseries #smut #smutbooks #smutbook #smuttok #comedy #thirtiesclub #iykyk #middleagedwoman #middleagedwomen #thirtyaf

I am literally a professional writer. I words for a living. But when I burn out… word recall is the first thing to go. But my brain is still so dedicated to helping. Also, curious about what a hyperbolic chamber is. #brain #comedy #comedy😜 #relatable #weirdosunite #tiredbrain #professionalwriting #professionalwriter #adhd #neurodivergent #burntout #sickinbed

This has been a doozy. #recovery #recoveryjourney #embodied #innerchild

Well, thanks for coming on that roller coaster of emotions with me. It was my 10 year sobriety anniversary, so the cry was on deck anyway. Context: I have wanted to do hip hop dance for over a decade. It has been immensely challenging to find dance classes for over the age of 18, because apparently only children and tweens need to learn how to twerk. To increase the accountability and likelihood of me finding an adult hip hop class and driving however long required… I put “go to dance class“ as the prize for my most recent avoidance journey task. And then I shared it with the world. Which made it very challenging to cancel. So, I went. I made it one hour and 15 minutes out of the one hour and 30 minute class. Ultimately, I got overwhelmed and shut down. But… I did really well up to that point! Especially for my first class — and it turns out that the class is actually intermediate/advanced! Oops. This class helped make it abundantly clear to me that I am struggling with feeling sexy as a sober woman in my late 30s. The last time I allowed myself the feeling of “sexiness“ was in my early 20s when I was active in my addiction, had long hair and big fake boobs, and my idea of sexy was getting attention from men. Now, I want an embodied feeling of confident sexiness that is only for me. One that I don’t age out of. And I know that this type of movement will help me break through this icky shell of insecurity that I’ve created for myself. So… Before the fear could harden around me, I immediately scheduled another two dance classes. The next one is this coming Thursday and it’s an introduction to hip hop. The other one is a week later, and is all about learning to feel emotion in the body and use movement to express it. I will probably bring tissues to that one as well. Just because we are hypersensitive or introverts or neurodivergent doesn’t mean we can’t live the life we’ve always dreamed of. It just means we may need to cry or nap afterward. Does anyone else feel awkward inside of their body or struggle to let themselves feel free and sexy? Have you found anything that helps?

I cannot express to you how fast I was able to suddenly run with so much on the line. #doordashlife #doordash #comedy #comedystory #bonusmom #bonusmomlife #bonusmomchronicles #bonuskids #storyteller

Next avoidance task is the biggest one so far: PUBLISH MY BOOK. 🫣 Since this’ll be a longer, more involved process, I’ll likely have Boyfriend pick other tasks while I chip away at this one. I literally sulked for 32 hours straight before posting this. #goalephant #overcomefear #overcomeanxiety #overcomer #overcomefears #OvercomeYourFear #overcomeyourfears #onestepatatime #resistance #takeaction #takeactionnow #takeactiontoday #dowhatyoucan #dowhatyoucanwithwhatyouhave #nomoreexcuses #screenwriter #accountabilitypost #peoplepleaser #selfawareness #selfawarenessjourney #justdoit #followyourdreams #followyourpassion #youcandoit #jenspiration #inspiration #inspirational #inspirationalvideo #accountability #accountabilitypartner

I don’t like doing things. I like HAVING DONE things. I’ll be radio silent for a week but I’m not hiding or avoiding you — I’m spending a week bonding with my cousin, Mother Nature, and likely my own body odor. KEEP THOSE OVERCOMING AVOIDANCE JOURNEYS GOING! Can’t wait to see the magic you create. Or celebrate that you brushed your teeth. Each person and each day has a different flavor of celebration. #backpacking #reiadventures #reiadventure #introvert #introverts #introvertproblems #introvertlife #soberbirthday #iwantanap #overcomefear #overcomefears #overcomeanxiety #thirties #thirtiesclub #comedy

Dear Management, The amount of pressure I put on myself to be good and kind and just and conscious and mindful and aware can be rather exhausting. As such, I’d like to request one day to be a buttface with no repercussions or following guilt and despair. Thank you. Fuck right off, Jen P.S. Sorry for saying fuck right off. I’m sure you’re doing the best you can from your level of awareness. #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #acoa #acoarecovery #codependentnomore #codependencyrecovery

I expressed anger in a kind, direct, boundary setting way. Rather than celebrate that, my brain is telling me that I was both not angry enough and too angry at the same time. Feelin cute. Might go apologize even though I did nothing wrong. (The person is a neighbor, whose dog is always off leash and runs into the street at our dogs. Today it was really really really bad. This has been going on for over a year and I finally had to say something.) #boundarysetting #peoplepleaser #peoplepleasing #peoplepleasernomore #peoplepleasers #peoplepleaserproblems #codependencyrecovery #ineedanap #adulting #recovery #selfawareness #insecureattachment #relatable #weirdosunite #recoveryjourney #acoa #acoarecovery

Welp. Nailed that attempt at being cool. Also may have either freaked out or intrigued the driver. I’ll never know because I’m never leaving my house again. #awkward #awkwardmoments #introverts #introvertstruggles #introvertproblems #introvertlife #weirdosunite #sociallyawkward #thirties #thirtyaf #relatable #awkwardness #awkwardhand

Avoidance task picked and completed! (Task 11) PAY ME, SHAKTI! I LOVE YOUR TORTURE SPIKE MAT! #shaktimat #shakti (Apparently to make a comfortable living as a comedian and screenwriter, I have to actually reach out to people and network and such. Gross.) #overcomefear #overcomeanxiety #overcomer #overcomefears #OvercomeYourFear #overcomeyourfears #onestepatatime #resistance #takeaction #takeactionnow #takeactiontoday #dowhatyoucan #dowhatyoucanwithwhatyouhave #nomoreexcuses #screenwriter #contentcreator #peoplepleaser #selfawareness #selfawarenessjourney #justdoit #followyourdreams #followyourpassion #youcandoit #jenspiration #inspiration #inspirational #inspirationalvideo #accountability