😁😁 i miss you more than anything no matter how many guys i try to get along with a part of me will always be missing i feel so empty since we stopped talking i was so drained i started to go to a psychologist i talked to her about you she knows everything about you she saw me crying about you and after everything i do trying to distract myself i always end up staring at the wall feeling a hole in my stomach while thinking about us again, we never were something we liked each other but we stayed in silence and thats something i really regret. i wish you told me earlier i wish you talked about your feelings with me i wish we didnt live this far away i wish you loved me the way i loved you at all, im sorry if i left many times im sorry if i acted dry i was jealous and i had a feeling of getting away to get better but it turned out getting worse and worse and worse and worse. watching you fall in love with that guy made my smile fade day by day and watching that guy fall in love with you made me stop eating day by day, i had nobody i had no one by my side, just you. you were so special to me you were my sun i remember all the mornings i used to wake up early for you i remember every detail i remember all your affection i remember how we used to be🙁 it started eating my mind till now, and its been months. i really would stop loving you i WANT to stop loving you but my heart chose you and im not able to change that i miss everything about you i miss your messages i miss your pics i miss your eyes i miss your i love you's i miss all of you. i would pay gold to talk to you again i would give my whole soul to have you by my side again this hit me so hard i started feeling dead you got me crying my eyes out every second every minute every day and every month you got me feeling empty after waking up from my dream where you knocked at my door and then hugged me apologizing, you got me changing in worse and i hate you for that. a part of me wants you to disappear, the other part of me wants to feel your love again, im dying