Ash Thomson

I knew the shirt would make me emotional. I cried the day I packed it in a box 3.5 years ago. I cried the day I unpacked it months ago, into another box waiting to be added to my daughter’s drawers. I cried the day I added it to my daughter’s folded pile of shirts in her drawer and I cried today, the first time I’ve felt brave enough to dress her in it. What i didn’t realise would make me cry was this piece of cheese. The photo I found today of Bobbi in this shirt was her and her piece of cheese, memories of our hospital bed picnics come rushing back. Hours before finding this photo, I took Emma for a picnic and took photos of her and her cheese too. So, today I cried over cheese and a shirt. Maybe a sign, maybe a coincidence, either way Bobbi is always on my mind and in my heart. 🩷 #grief #childloss #childhoodcancer

Highly recommend getting pregnant with your sister, becoming best friends and raising best friends together 🥹❤️ #pregnantsisters #twincousins #BestFriends

I dont open up a lot about this side of my grief but man it’s hard. For almost a whole year of my life, every single person around me had a devastatingly ill child - cancer, brain injurjes, terminal diseases and more. It’s so hard to rewire my brain into knowing that sick children are not the norm because it was all I experienced for so long. I take so many photos and videos of them because I am subconsciously trying to preserve their memories like I did with Bobbi. Everything and anything convinces me that my babies are critically ill and i live everyday in fear of watching them die. PTSD is so cruel ❤️‍🩹 #childhoodcancer #childloss #grief #ptsd #anxiety

Blown away by the determination and strength of our Bonnie girl 🩷 Feel free to ask any questions in the comments #hipdysplasia

This song is so incredibly beautiful! As soon as i heard it I thought of my wedding straight away. I saved Bobbi girl a seat and she walked me down the aisle 🥹❤️‍🩹 #saveyouaseat #grief

My OG followers will know how special this video is ❤️‍🩹 I was rewatching the original video after filming this today and right at the end Bobbi cries for Emma… and of all days for me to film this, emma is dressed as emma and it all feels like an overwhelming hug from above. Whoever sent me this teddy (i received it a few days before bobbi died, so that time is SO clouded for me im sorry i cant remember 😭) please know that it is a treasured keepsake in our home and i regularly do this with emma 🥹🥰 #grief #childloss #toddleraffirmations #childhoodcancer #emmawiggle #bebraveforbobbi

Today my toddler casually handed me a 💩 nugget at the dinner table 🥴 Toddler parenting is something else 😂🤪 #toddlersoftiktok #toddlerlife #funnytoddler #parentinghumor

Guiding me everyday, so grateful for everything you taught me but wish you were here ❤️‍🩹 How incredibly beautiful is this sound - such a gorgeous voice 🥹