the.littlebeast

WE ARE OFFICIALLY 3 MONTHS OUT FROM OUR COMPETITION! 😊🕺🏽 we’ve been locked innn, time to take it up a notch! 😤 @CelsiusOfficial #celsiusbrandpartner #celsiuslivefit

There are so many ways we can PR, whether it’s a one rep max or a rep PR, and learning to celebrate all types of wins sets our brains to look for ways we can make more little wins and PRs outside of the gym too and i think that makes life even more fun ☺️🤗 wrist wraps: @VILLAGE HIDDEN IN IRON code | littlebeast

I'm finding that spark in me againnn 🥹 we're about 10 lbs lighter starting this newtraining block than was the lasttimel touched this weight, and I'm actually feeling solid. Also also squatting without a mirror again thisblock to get myself readyin that aspect too for when I decide I'm ready to compete again 😌 Last time I skated 505 pounds, gained about 10 pounds, so I'm very happy to be able to do the same with my current weight ☺️ I just started a new training block, so I'm going to skate without a mirror to practice for the competition. It's been a long time since l've been looking forward to training like this, and I'm very grateful 🤗 @CelsiusOfficial #celsiusbrandpartner #celsiuslivefit

Loving reminder that we are SUCH resilient beings! ❤️‍🩹 my first spine injury was 2 stress fractures and 2 disc bulges from being malnourished for a prolonged period of time at the peak of my ED while I pushed through 27-30 hours of figure skating practice weekly, and the second was from a hit and run accident in 2020 that left me 4 disc bulges in my neck, 2 in my back, a concussion, and burns and lacerations down my back from all 3 airbags on my side deploying. I was crushed when I was told I’d never be able to squat or deadlift again but that “maybe [I] can eventually work my way up to doing a leg press”. But a handful of athletes gave me hope otherwise and I stayed patient with physical therapy and the healing process until I could lift again. And now it’s so wildly exciting that I’m actually stronger than I was prior to the accident AND that I get to compete again. Baby steps throughout and progress is never linear, but we are showin up and running with what we’re blessed with! 🥹❤️‍🔥 cheers to making the most out of our own journeys and understanding that our timeline is just that— OUR progress with our own timing because there’s no such thing as a blueprint for life, and there’s purpose in being where we are at each given stage of our lives 💛

It’s so easy to criticize and nitpick on parts of our lives and selves that we’re still struggling to love wholeheartedly, but when we start learning to be intentional about focusing and putting weight on how far we HAVE come and what we do like, or even love about ourselves, we slowly get to take accountability for the voices inside our head and make our headspace a more pleasant place to be, little by little. I lost so much of the progress I made from when I was on top of my bulk and eating in a surplus for months last year in as little as two months, and it felt like I undid so much of my “hard work” when my mental health took a hit and I lost over 12lbs of what I had finally put on during that bulk. But even then, the fact that I have an overall healthy relationship with food and body image as well as a full head of hair is still a W compared to when I had started my recovery from ED and had lost most of my hair as a byproduct of the deteriorating relationship I developed with food and self. I still get to start over with my bulk once this year’s competition season is over, and I still get to nourish and make strength gains with the body I have now. And for that, I’m grateful and have all the reasons to feel hopeful and excited for my future. We got this 😊💛 #hairgrowth #recovery #hopecore

We are getting better at having control over the weight with numbers closer to our maxes 😊 My preworkout stack (watermelon water + Pule Pre in tropical punch + Performance Surge): @Legion Athletics Fit: @Darc Sport Belt + knee sleeves: @VILLAGE HIDDEN IN IRON code | littlebeast

Ever since I started squatting without facing the mirror a few weeks ago i realized how much I’d been relying on the mirror as a visual cue to know when I hit depth. So it’s been a cool minute to get my body to memorize where depth is on its own but I think we’re finally starting to get the hang of it 😊😌 preworkout • creatine • protein by @Legion Athletics code | littlebeast

Sometimes it feels like I haven’t been making progress or that my transformation is barely happening, if at all, then I look back at pictures and videos from a year ago and realize that there ARE noticeable differences even at the same weight. We workin we workin! 😊😤💪🏽 full fit is @Darc Sport code | littlebeast

Transformations take time for us to notice a difference. It takes even more time to progress enough for others to notice. And then there are mental transformations that are even harder to detect from the outside. But we keep showing up anyways because the day to day work it takes DOES count in the end. preferred supps for preworkout, creatine, & protein: @Legion Athletics code | littlebeast

AAAAGHHHH LESS THAN 2 MONTHS OUT FROM MEET DAY!!! Body is starting to have to fight off fatigue but I’m feeling good and mentally ready for the final push 😤 @CelsiusOfficial #celsiusbrandpartner #celsiuslivefit

I don’t think I’ve properly anticipated how much my strength would be compromised by choosing to do a cut and try making a lower weight class that I’ve never competed in before. I get hard on myself and get so easily frustrated with training when I feel as though I’m not progressing fast enough. But considering my history with food, it’s already a W that I’ve been able to maintain a healthy relationship with food without reverting back to disordered eating patterns. Still chasing bigger numbers but i have to also give myself credit for where i AM progressing ☺️💛 @CelsiusOfficial #celsiusbrandpartner #celsiuslivefit

Playing around with and tweaking technique for the lift I have the worst form in out of SBDs (squat • bench • deadlift) 🥲 (squat bar = 55lbs, collars aka metal clips are 2.5kg each, there are two 20kg plates on each side) full fit: @Darc Sport code | littlebeast

20 DAYS OUT Fit: @Darc Sport Preworkout stack: @Legion Athletics Code | littlebeast

It’s the community hype for me 🥹🙌🏽 Fit: @Darc Sport code | littlebeast

bodyweight hovering around 122lbs amd we are feeling stronggg 😊⚡️ wrist wraps: @VILLAGE HIDDEN IN IRON code | littlebeast

LIFTING IS LITERALLY SUCH A ME VS MIND GAME!! It’s either my brain has full conviction that I have the set in me or my brain convinces me that i’ll drown in my doubts 😭 we got this we got this @CelsiusOfficial #celsiusbrandpartner #celsiuslivefit

2 WEEKS OUT WE’RE PUTTING IN ALL WE’VE GOT 😮‍💨🙌🏽 whenever I’m not feeling the oomph I need to train with intensity, I remember the saying that someone out there is doing that rep you aren’t doing and you better pray it’s not someone you’re sharing the stage with. Almost there yall 🥹 Fit: @Darc Sport Belt + wrist straps: @VILLAGE HIDDEN IN IRON code | littlebeast #powerliftingwomen #deadlift #hopecore

Ouuuu I’m excited and nervous all at once to be on the platform again 🥹🥹 Preworkout stack: @Legion Athletics Belt + knee sleeves: @VILLAGE HIDDEN IN IRON code | littlebeast

Just some of the things in my life that bring out my favorite versions of me 🤗 Dance clips from class with @eazycece_ 💞

FIVE DAYS OUT HOLYYYY Preferred supplements: @Legion Athletics (I like mixing OJ or watermelon water with tropical punch pre + performance surge for me heavy days 😌🤌🏽 and then ofc creatine is a daily staple) code | littlebeast